On The Fence

I’m on the fence about whether it’s a good thing or not for the NBA to cash in on the legacy of Dr. Martin Luther King by broadcasting a marathon of games on TNT today, but I’ll try to figure that one out while I watch the Golden State Warriors take on the Cavaliers of Cleveland.

Instead of sitting around the house watching NBA or surfing the interwebs today - or generally doing anything of service - I decided to take my children on a 5 mile hike to some waterfalls out by the Lewis River in SW Washington.

It was especially fun because my older brother came along too. And actually it is sort of a service for my kids, gave them an opportunity to get away from their devices and see the outdoors ... and spend time with their Uncle Pat!

I remember going to San Francisco, crossing the Golden Gate Bridge with my aunt and uncle and cousin when I was young. And I want my kids to have that sense of family and experiences that they can pass on to their families.

Now it’s halftime, and Charles Barkley and Shaq are talking like the Warriors-Cavs might be the best rivalry in the league. And yet maybe we won’t see either team in the Finals this year. There are a lot of good teams. In the West and in the East. OKC, Houston, Boston, Toronto ...

For my money, the best rivalry might be between my son and my daughter though. Over and over they are battling about who’s first, who gets the most attention, who’s the favorite. And that’s when it turns ugly. They argue about who can cover their face the best, who wears a hood better, versus hiding her face with her hair; who’s going to push who off the wall, into the drink; and who’s going to be the most annoying. Who gets the most attention. Who’s the loudest. Who gets to control the dog. And who gets to control me.

Me, that’s who.

I try so hard not to show any differential favoritism to either of them, I don’t think there’s any way I could love someone more that I do them. And it’s different, but not equal. I love them with pride, I love my son with satisfaction for doing an excellent job; and I love my daughter with fear - fear of a new school, fear of fitting in. But it’s even more than that, it’s love from seeing the results. And a fear of expectation. My expectations are high, but I hope for their expectations to be even higher.

So when I hear from my son that he thinks I take his sister’s side all the time in arguments, it breaks my heart; disappoints me.

Well, now the Warriors finally taken the lead in the 3rd quarter with a 3 from Curry, and we know it’s going to be all right. I still don’t know if it’s ‘okay’ to use MLK-day to sell a televised basketball marathon. But they play basketball on Christmas, and I don’t hear too many people at my church complain. In fact, that’s always something we look froward to. Just so long as the refs don’t play favorites.

Linguisa Omelette from Paul’s Restaurant & Lounge

Starting a new blog. Writing about something.

Writing about eggs.

Writing about an omelette.

A linguisa omelette from Paul’s Restaurant & Lounge in Vancouver WA. The omelet was okay, but it came with a half order of homemade biscuits and gravy which was really good. But the linguisa was cut up, looked like bits of hotdog. Didn’t taste as exciting as I’d hoped.

But let me tell you about the biscuit. It was a square, like something cut from the pan of a cornbread cake. It tasted real good / had good flavor, and the sausage gravy was thick and yummy. But it wasn’t like an actual biscuit! Then I doused the whole thing with Cholula Hot Sauce, which earned a comment from our waitress, and then who could tell anyway. Not a crumb was wasted.

But this wasn’t our regular joint! So we weren’t used to eating here (right next to the Elbow Room, world famous drinking establishment). It was Bruce, Tom, Tim, Nancy, Neil, Jerry, and me. Seven of us at the table, and the waitress was on her game. She had comments and coffee enough for all of us, and that’s enough of a reason for me to come back again, try it again. Tim had pigs in a blanket, and the waitress had something funny to say about that too … after all, he’s a grown-ass adult.

Our regular spot is Dulin’s cafe, just around the corner from Paul’s, on Main Street. It might be a little better, but it’s also a little pricier. And it’s also a lot more crowded. But Dulin’s was closed today - for maintenance. I’m thinking, maybe best to keep that quiet too.

But of course we’ll be back to Dulin’s. They’ve got a traditional English breakfast that’s really good, even comes with grilled tomato. And an omelette called the French Connection with brie cheese baked inside.

I like having breakfast with these guys. This is a good crew, even though Larry was missing.

The other crew goes to Provecho, an awesome Mexican restaurant. There’s Greg and Richard and sometimes Brian and Reed. A good group of guys. A little too conservative, but they let me hang so that’s cool.

It’s literally (not literally) a hole in the wall establishment, Provecho. They’ve got outside eating, and a sausage and egg burrito that’s to die for. Also, today would have been a perfect day to eat outside. Weather’s just amazing. Instead I’m spending it inside writing a blog, waiting for the NFL games to begin.

And Provecho has this proprietress who always has a snarky comment, and lets Richard ask if they have any leftovers from the night before. Maybe a cup of soup, or a single enchilada. And the chips & salsa cost $6 … but I think they’ll refill them for free. The salsa is always delicious, and the red sauce will make you cry it’s so good. I’ll sometimes get the hiccups after eating too much. Such a gringo!

But back to Paul’s … 

Paul’s almost makes you yearn for the day when you could smoke in a restaurant. There was another party sitting at about 5 tables pushed together with dudes wearing black leather vests with Christian Motorcycle Club patches on the back. Hell’s Angels rejects. Christian badasses.

And there we were, seven of us squeezed together in this makeshift booth. I’m jealous because Tom and Bruce are going down to Mexico next week, and that’s what a lot of our conversation consisted of. And the James Taylor concert soon with Bonnie Raitt. “Oh Mexico, I never really been so I just don’t know.”

End new blog.

Happy New Year – Hoorah!

So I’ve signed up to be a part of this thing called the Poet Bloggers Revival Tour … I think. At least I think I signed up for it. Anyway, I’m going to try blogging at least once a month starting in 2018, so might as well try to start today. January 31, 2017. Maybe it’s just my way of trying to piggyback onto something larger than me, and so motivate myself to write on a more regular basis.

So to continue, I’m going to be using this opportunity to shamelessly self-promote my book, which I never really did on this blog, Analog Verse.

(See I’m even better at promoting my blog than I am my book.)

But it’s been a good year for me, for my book, for my writing, for poetry. We had a book launch all the way back in January of this year (2017) at Angst Gallery that I didn’t really promote on this blog. Then we had another Portland book launch at Mother Foucault’s Book Shop – that I dind’t really promote. A little bit. But it takes a lot of work to do promotions. (That’s why a lot of companies have their own promotion department, as a paid staffing gig.)

We don’t. Tourane Poetry Press is a very small company run out of Willow Glen, California.

So because I didn’t do the promotion thing, maybe I short-changed my supporting readers who helped me do the whole book-launch thing. So let me begin with that.

At the Angst Gallery book-launch we had Nathan Tompkins, Alex Vigue, Toni Partington, and Jennifer Robin as guest-readers. And we had cake!

It was a very family-friendly affair, my mom brought a cake, my wife brought our children, and a lot of folk from the community showed up as support. Lots of people from my church, Toni Partington’s husband (and the poet laureate of Clark County) Christopher Luna MC’d the event – it was quite overwhelming, and filled me with so much hope. Very lovely. Leah Jackson, the gallery’s proprietor was smiling as it did just what she built the gallery for, to create community and support artists around the Vancouver area.

At the Mother Foucault book launch we had Jennifer Robin (again), Amie Zimmerman, and Mike G. Adam Strong acted as the MC. And again, it was just an amazing night. So to all those artists that helped and inspired and supported and wrote and read and submitted work and were turned away, and turned away, and turned away again … and then finally published, I owe a great debt of appreciation.

I continue to read at the Ghost Town open mic (which continues to be run by Toni and Chris) and also I want to still support Tony’s Talking To, which has now been taken over by Mike G. And the writing community in Portland and Vancouver continues to be lush and amazing. (And I continue to have a big box of books to sell.) And so to all those things continuing in 2018, I say hoorah!

And so to hopping on the Poet Bloggers Revival Tour, I say hoorah!

Hoorah!

White Rabbit - for Songbook 9 - at Post 134, Alberta Street

Blogging, first time in a while. Feels weird. Everything's different. Yet nothing has changed.

Maybe I'd like to make this a habit ... idea for a future blog, why have I resisted blogging for such a long time?

Anyway, that's for a future post. Right now I want to share that I'll be reading tomorrow night at Post 134 on Alberta Street, series called Songbook. I'm really excited to be doing this. I think I was at the very first Songbook reading and I thought, holy shit. This is awesome. I want to be included on this dais. And so somehow I managed to introduce myself to Adam Strong, the cat who hosts this series, and even become friends with him. And in fact I'm his regular sub for his digital arts class. (But that too is food for a future blog as well.)

So without further ado, here's the piece I'll be reading tomorrow. Enjoy!

SONGBOOK – WHITE RABBIT

18 NOVEMBER 2017 – POST 134, ALBERTA STREET

Dad had a Realistic amplifier / tuner. It was all tubes, baby. Bragged about picking it up at the RadioShack – back when RadioShack actually meant radio. We’re talking Hi-Fi here, sound an audiophile might lose their shit over. It had a face that would glow green with AM numbers all the way from the 500’s, and up into the stratosphere. And it had FM too, baby. This thing would play in stereo, with speakers so big, the bass would make your bell-bottom trousers rattle like an actual bell had just been rung.

And Dad would take out the Jefferson Airplane record, Surrealistic Pillow, place the needle down on track number 2. Hear the crackling – that warm analog sound – as the needle digs down deep into the grooves, cleaning out the dust with that popping and static. Hear it …

When the truth is found – to be lies

And all the joy within you – dies

Don’t you want somebody to love?

Don’t you need somebody to love?

Wouldn’t you love somebody to love?

You better find somebody to love …

But this piece isn’t about that.

Flip the record over, side 2, track 5 – “White Rabbit.” 2-1/2 minutes of pure pop sensation, moving from innocence and perception into a crescendo of psychedelic bliss and Lewis Carroll imagery: the Queen of Hearts, that caterpillar smoking hookah, Through the Looking Glass …

But we’re not there yet.

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In our house, Saturday mornings meant house cleaning, and Saturday Morning Cartoons – something this generation has no concept of. Now they can get their cartoon fix whenever and wherever they are. Whenever that imperious urge strikes, just pull out your device and connect to the nearest Wi-Fi, hotspot, 4G streaming, and view the latest adventures of Gumball, or Steven’s Universe, Teen Titans – parodies of the great shows that we would wake up for early on a Saturday morning. I’m talking the Super Friends, Superman and Wonder Woman, the Adventures of Batman and Robin, all teamed together with Aquaman, the Flash, and of course the Wonder Twins with their monkey sidekick, Gleek. Gems of the Hanna-Barbera canon. Scooby-Doo and the Mystery Gang. Dick Dastardly and Muttley, Speed Buggy and Jabberjaw, Captain Caveman, the Super Harlem Globetrotters. These are some real gems here folks, some of the best writing for any 8 year-old mind!

Then we had the Warner Brother’s cartoons, shows our Dad would actually sit down and watch with us. Bugs Bunny and the Road Runner Show, Wile E. Coyote always trying to procure some device from ACME Inc. to help him catch that Road Runner – a 20 ton anvil to fall on his head, casks of TNT, roller-skates and electromagnets attached to train tracks, getting strapped to the back of a rocket (never a good idea), painting tunnels on cliffsides – and then actually getting steamrolled by a speeding locomotive. Defying Newton’s Laws of Gravity! We just loved it, Dad and all three of us boys.

Then it came time to clean the house. Every Saturday, spick and span. Literally, Dad did a white glove check to make sure that we dusted right. He had a sign in his garage that read CLEANLINESS IS NEXT TO GODLINESS. And he believed it too. But when it came time to cleaning, he knew what we needed. We needed music – especially for the vacuuming – and Dad was our DJ.

And that was when he would take out the Surrealistic Pillow record. A simple album cover, the band’s logo written in pink with a black and white picture of the group. There’s Paul Kantner sitting with the headstock of a fiddle covering his right eye. And the drummer, Spencer Dryden, holding up a banjo for some reason. And there’s young Marty Balin, holding a flute. And why is Jack Casady staring off to the right for some reason? And there’s Jorma Kaukonen, lead guitarist, looking as heavy as possible, wearing dark shades and striped shirt.

But there in the center, Grace Slick, the ringleader, the lion tamer, looking as pretty as ever, somehow managing to keep this motley bunch of pranksters together. Leader, by default.

But not without contest.

And there’s Dad, pushing that vacuum, singing along. And there’s Pat and me and Timmy, pulling couch away from wall so we can chase the dust bunnies back there.

And now here comes side two of the record, opens with the rocker “3/5 of a Mile in 10 Seconds,” which is followed by the mellow gold of “DCBA-25.” Takes you right into that zone.

Then “How Do You Feel” – has that Mammas and Pappas groove, sung in harmonies by Paul Kantner, Marty Balin, and Grace Slick. Then that gives way to Jorma Kaukonen’s acoustic masterpiece, “Embryonic Journey.” Beautiful, melodic acoustic guitars.

Which leads then into Jack Cassidy strumming out that bass line, a trance – the exotic, eastern sounds of “White Rabbit’s” intro. It’s in like an invitation, taken up by cadence, now tapped out on snare, a jazzy march – transports us to some other destination, maybe a riverboat, fully shaped now by hypnotic drone of guitar, feeling something like a snake charmer as Grace Slick replies …

One pill makes you larger

And one pill makes you small

And the ones that mother gives you

Don’t do anything at all

Go ask Alice – when she’s 10 feet tall

She chants; her vocals informing us now of this ceremony taking place – we are not just spectators.

Her low, lamenting tenor is mysterious, sexy. Grace Slick. She is the Acid Queen, prophetic, and this dance is timeless – the 2-1/2 minute song could last forever, seems to touch infinity; takes up so much presence, says so much in such a brief moment.

The perfect pop song, conjuring Alice in Wonderland – we are all players on this chess board, vacuuming the house, stacking chairs on kitchen table, to run that vacuum under kitchen table, behind curtains and couches and carpets. Cleanliness is next to godliness!

Takes us back to San Francisco – Top of the Mark. Eating dim sum in Chinatown with Aunt Peach and Uncle Dick. Crossing the Golden Gate Bridge, now cloaked in fog.

Then hearing the stories before the three of us boys were even born. Dad, driving school bus on the hills in San Francisco, down Lombard Street. Mom riding the bus with her sister at five years old in the 1950’s with Aunt Mable.

Now Mom at Cal, pregnant with my older brother, walking through a protest – as the riot stops and pauses, waits for her to pass, as she goes on to her next class – and then starts up once again and she is safe. Vietnam War and Civil Rights, protests and marches – the 60’s that were just before my time.

Logic and proportion, the Mad Hatter – we’re all mad now! And as we run that vacuum cleaner, Dad singing away, playful gleam in his eye.

And now here we are, five days before Thanksgiving, we can all remember what the door mouse said, stuffing ourselves with turkey and cranberries, mashed potatoes and pumpkin pie – hear the ghost of my Dad – spooky, groovy – and sing along with me now:

Remember what the door mouse said,

Feed your head!

Feed your head!

This Started Out a Sonnet

How to connect with my daughter, break through

all that princess pink garbage but still elevate

her self-esteem – is that too P.C.? She does

not need to become subservient to a man,

wash dishes, vacuum the floor, cook dinner,

wash toilets – that’s what her mother’s for

– Joke! That was a joke …

How to have more time in the day

to show your kids the value of priorities

including cleaning, cooking, laundry, hygiene,

and still have time left over for

homework, sports, church, music, reading,

– Something’s got to give …

T.V., internet, blog? There’s not enough time

in a day – and look how old these

kids are getting, how quickly they’re growing up!

Answers: Soccer, Relationships, Cliché

– droll …

DRONE

This is the setlist of a Placentapede show at the Know, in Portland OR, from November 2009.

Equipment:

Guitar, with amp

Bass, with amp

Drum kit with cymbals

Synthesizer

PA with speakers, microphones

Tape deck with found recordings

Sampler

Various percussion instruments

The set will be 20 to 30 minutes in length.

It begins with a recording of scary movie sounds playing on the tapedeck through the PA. Adjusting tone for optimal sound. Extreme volumes are not needed.

The sampler is capturing ambient sounds and running them through the PA.

A microphone from the club’s PA is placed infront of one of our speakers.

The synthesizer is programmed to create some arpeggiator.

The bass guitar is turned on for low frequency. Feedback ensues.

The guitar is turned on for feedback leads.

Volume levels are very measured.

The tape is flipped, a new tape put on.

The musicians meditate on the drone produced, keeping it simple, minimal, expressive.

Aural conversation takes place.

Random musical energy is created.

Excitement crescendos.

The set ends; the tape plays through.